Irony or Providence?

After my recent technological triumphs, I have encountered some obstacles. I felt unstoppable after my first post. Subject matter aside, that post made me look as technologically competant as Doogie Howser in '85. I was like a 16 year old with a drivers' license and a loaned car. There were no limits to my cyber success.

I began to realize, however, that my success would only be temporary if I didn't actively continue this pursuit. That is, I needed to make another blog entry. People were asking me. "So you posted anything new lately?" And they were right. It was time. If I can't find time to make one over Christmas break, then when will I find the ambition during the semester? And once I establish myself as an "infrequent blogger," the blog people will come and get me dismembered or something - right? Or perhaps they will write me off as one who most often has nothing to say except on rare occassion and then all the momentum and interest that I started with will turn to dust. I will become the abandonned blog, lost in the abstract infinite of cyber space. Nothing seemed more frightening.

I didn't set up my account alone, though. Tr walked me carefully through each step and with him gone, I would have to post alone. I was intimidated but I reminded myself of all that I had overcome these past few months. So I went to the blog homepage to sign on. Oh it was overwhelming though. First I couldn't figure why I kept starting the process of making a new account when I already had one until I realized that "create a new blog" does not mean making a new entry in your current blog account. Then I couldn't remember my password or maybe it was my "user name" so they kept sending me these emails to answer my questions but I didn't know what they meant and all I wanted to do was explain to the epeople that I indeed am cate or catebrooks or whatever I go by on the internet and that this was my home computer and that you can trust me because I won't tell anyone you let me on without remembering my password and I didn't understand what was meant by making a "new blogger" account with google but maybe there was something we could work out with me being the an honest person...

But that wouldn't be fair, not to me or anyone else. I am no exception to the blog laws and it is best that I learn them now so that I can acquire a real kind of technological self-respect. But I can't say that I am feeling very confident right now. In fact, I am in need of some elove and ecomfort before I am able to regain the kind of self-reliance I once felt not more than a week ago. But I just have a feeling I may come out on top.